you know that one person, the one you always seem to go back to? no matter how many times you fall apart, you feel like somehow everything will someday be perfect between you two? the weakness behind your roughest days, but at the same time your strength when you’re flying high? you’d do anything for them, but they wouldn’t do half of that for you. everytime you see them, feelings and memories come rushing back like they happened just yesterday. when you’re with them, it’s like nothing ever changed since the last time you were happy together, despite all of the problems you actually did go through. they finally get you to let your guard down…after you’ve fought so hard to keep it up because you’re scared of being hurt again. then they take advantage of the fact that you care about them, and let you down again. 

it’s like a game you can never win. 

be happy, but then get your heart crushed even worse than before?

or throw it all away and wonder what would have happened if you tried again…

the problem is that most people don’t understand that even the littlest things can hurt someone’s feelings. and i’m not saying i’ve never said or done anything to hurt anyone’s feelings. because believe me, i have. but maybe that’s something that everyone needs to start thinking about more. 

i don’t know about anyone else, but those comments or actions that seem like nothing eventually start to build up and hit you like a bag of bricks.  

i feel like shit.

i hate you so much.

you fooled me once, shame on you. 

you fooled me twice, shame on ME. 

but now i’ve learned, and it will never happen again.

i don’t deserve that, and frankly, you don’t deserve me.